“Among us, I’m gonna be the first to leave Malaysia and study overseas… Probably on August next year, I’ll be following my sis to Russia and study over there…”

I definitely said that before 2 years back… Still, I remembered everything… Friends even started planning my farewell party, where I gonna make the party and how often we can gather together after I leave…

It’s kind of hilarious recalling back those times… I was just crapping after all… Everyone flew, almost every of my friends went overseas to pursue their studies… It’s either they are already left, going to leave, or they’ve already come back… Why am I still here? Why? Why can’t I be like them, studying aboard?

Very funny, it’s fated I can only say… Ka Yan and Dinesh, two of my ex classmates, they just went Canada few days ago… They made me a jealous man… Seriously, I wish to swap my life with theirs for once… Kind of crazy but I just wanted to get the same kind of feelings… Friends all gathered in the airport sending them off, everybody gave their best wishes and bless them as they leave… That kind of feeling, I wondered how it feels like…

Maybe people are right, studying in Malaysia and studying overseas, there’s only a subtle difference… After all, the cert that we are getting is just the same… But for me, I took the contrary view, studying aboard is so much different compared to studying here… We get to blend into the culture of other countries, can’t be gainsaid that every country is unique as its own… Moreover, staying apart from family and buddies made us stronger and definitely more independent… Plus, who would like to stay in Malaysia? I meant Chinese…… NONE!

I always tell people to look things not as they are, but as they can be… Maybe I should visualize what am I in the future, not just stuck in the present… It’s a fact that I can’t go overseas to study now, but that doesn’t mean that I will never study overseas… I can do my masters overseas… No, I must do it, I must experience what it is like studying aboard… That makes me feel one degree better…

I wasn’t complaining, I should be thankful that at least I can still study… Some people don’t even have the opportunity to study… Just… You know, jealousy… Mind me… =P

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I’m bored waiting for ISAT, when is it coming? =( And I’m not seeing you for 45 days already, another 17 days more… Then you’re here =) … Should be fast, I believe 17 days would just pass in a blink =)